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Christmas

2009-11-24T09:01:00.002+08:00

At 1 am, I just have the urge to blog about Christmas... Yes, I know it's in a month's time.. but I really can't wait for it...

I have always loved Christmas.. it is really a season of love, joy and hope. Listening to Christmas' songs never fails to put a smile on my face. I could go all day listening to them.. this joy is just unexplainable. a joy that casts every problems away... a joy that comes from Above... a gift i would say..

it is even more powerful when you know the true meaning of Christmas... it's like this amazing, wonderful present that you could ever imagined which it's given without any condition... you just need to believe... having that faith that Christ was born and He was here on earth.. like one of us... but He was pure and holy, gentle and loving.. you can find no one like Him...

How great is that?

Holiness

2009-11-19T08:09:00.002+08:00

I have been struck with this word recently. As I was preparing for bible study, God says, "Be holy for I am Holy."

Be Holy! God is telling my to be holy. What does He mean? What is holiness? I wonder.

Does it mean sinless? I doubt so. How can i be sinless? God can't be asking me to be sinless, can He? so, what is sin? I found out that sin in Greek means 'miss the mark'. We are sinners because we can never meet God's mark, God's standard. we sin. it is not just wrongdoing, but missing the mark. So, how can we be holy?

when God says be holy, he means setting apart for Him. That's a revelation to me in a way. i am called to be set apart for Him because He is holy. In this context, because of His character, He is sinless, thus Holy.

next question, am i setting apart for Him in my life right now? it is a struggle.

Just a thought..

2009-10-15T07:32:00.002+08:00

What is patience? What is the antonym of patience?

Many would say is impatience.. i mean how difficult could it be? I was asked by someone about this.. and i knew it wasn't that simple.. but i just couldn't figure out what the answer is and blurted out, "Impatience la!"

However... the answer that I was told is PRIDE. Why would a person lose his patience? because of his pride.. he wants his ways of doing things, hence he doesn't want to wait, doesn't want to hear from others... only his ways because he thinks he is good...

why pride? because many times, we think that we are right... we think that we are wise... so, we lack of patience.. we can't wait, we can't endure, we can't tolerate...

I really like what my friend said.. the opposite of patience is PRIDE.

The one UP there...

2009-09-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

I like the email teck keong sent to me when I was feeling emo about going back...

"Jesus is enough... Jesus is enough..."

Indeed,

That statement really comforted me a lot... or rather reminded me that Jesus alone is whom I should rely upon and He alone provides my needs...

The one UP there... who is always faithful, always loving, always caring... He is what I need, whom I need... Thank you...

Thank you Jesus.

It's time

2009-09-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

After a few months, I guess it's time to write again... Looking at the screen, my mind just went blank... but it's the urge that makes me write...

In a few days more, i'm going back to UK again... excited? nervous? sad? I guess it's everything... But one thing that I'm sure is I want to grow more... It will be challenging, seeing it's my final year and being in student's ministry... but God's promise is always there.. that He will deliver me...

God,

Prepare me...

I Need You..

2009-05-22T09:59:00.002+08:00

It's 3 a.m.

Couldn't sleep yet couldn't study...

My heart cries out to You O God... Help me during this time of distress... Grant me strength as I'm weak now...

I want to shout for joy but I feel like there's a stone suppressing my heart... I lift it all up to You... I want to lay down the stone unto You... "Cast all your anxieties." You said. for You care for me.

You are my refuge and my fortress. The only place where I can find peace... The only place where I can find comfort...

Do not turn Your back on me God... I want to feel your presence... Empower me once again!

I surrender all... absolutely everything... I'm not holding back... no strength to carry on... just relying on You because I know You will carry me through... Indeed, You are carrying me already as I only see one set of footprints... Thank You o God.

Above all else, I just want to say, "I Need You..."

I need You.

The Most Important essence in life

2009-04-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

Indeed, Love is the most important essence in life. It seems that God has been speaking to me about Love these few days..

We must love or Die!

Love always wins!

I just watched fireproof... the movie was talking about marriage and the love of God. God's love for us is unconditional. His love for us was never affected even though we rejected him, spat at him and trampled him. I was reminded by His love again and how He wants us to love others as His command said so.

Lord, teach me to love.

Mixed Feelings

2009-03-24T12:18:00.002+08:00

In Dubai now.. sitting alone at the corner of McD... Listening to "I Surrender" by Vineyard... writing this post... having mixed feelings...

I guess this is the first time that I felt sad leaving UK, or should I be more specific and say leaving my friends in UK... Though I was on the verge of crying but I held back... During my flight from Manchester to Dubai, I was thinking a lot about them... events, outings, stupid comments etc about them! Somehow, I really felt really upset..

At the same time, I'm excited to see home as well! I want to see my family and friends back there! Can't wait to eat all the delicious local delicacies!

But, those thoughts did not cheer me up for long.. I have this funny feeling about meeting people back home.. just wondering would it be awkward or weird.. wonder do people still the same, or rather am i still the same... feel like it's going to a "foreign" land where I don't know most of the people there...

oh well, maybe i'm just thinking too much due to the boredom... but then again, i reflect a lot... thinking about people back in UK and home...

Yes, I'm missing people in UK already...

Yes, I want to be Home..

Why can't I have both at the same time??

hmm..

2009-03-17T04:30:00.001+08:00

Thank you for Your love

Thank you for the cross

Surrender

2009-03-10T06:02:00.002+08:00

Surrender is such a powerful word. At many times, we say we surrender our all unto God. But, in reality, do we really surrender? or just partial surrender? I struggled more nowadays to say the word surrender.. it takes a lot of faith to say that word... it is no longer just mere saying... it is much more than that! God wants us to surrender our lives, not because He's a control freak but because He loves us too much to see us making silly mistakes in our lives... He wants us to trust Him because He is omniscience and omnipotent! Nothing can bring Him down... but why? why is it so hard to say that: "I Surrender"? Lord, help me to surrender everything... help me Lord... Give me that faith... Take away that fear in me... Give me more assurance... I know i'm asking too much and I know all the facts... I just need that little push! I want to say "I Surrender" wholeheartedly. It is a journey and this journey is not easy because you can't see the future, you can't see what's happening tomorrow.. It takes faith. Trust. Surrender.

False Impression

2009-03-07T08:49:00.002+08:00

People always have expectation on us, in fact, most of the time, they expect you to be good, holy, kind, caring etc when you are a Christian. Hence, we as christians tend to give people the impression that we are "good" people because that's the way we should be. It is true indeed because we are suppose to bear the fruit of the Spirit which have all the 9 qualities- love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. We all know that it takes time to develop this characteristics. Most importantly, we have to abide in Him as cling on to His word, persevere, obey His commands.

But deep down in us, are we really the persons that people see? How often do we put on a mask when we are in church? are we hypocrites? Do we do whatever that we preach? Are we hiding something that is so ugly, sinful, unholy, dirty or hideous in our life?

The Bible says, In Christ, we are free! free from all bondage, sins, strongholds etc! we are free in Christ! By saying free in Christ, does that mean that we wouldn't fall into sin again? we all know that isn't true... we all know that we have the sinful nature in us which going to cause us to sin... but can we resist temptations that are in our way? yes, we can... but sometimes we actually choose to fall into temptations because we take God's grace for granted and we know that God will forgive us again...

sigh.. it is sad...

Assumption

2009-03-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

Many times in life we make lots of assumptions.. However, assumptions can cause misunderstandings between 2 parties if both parties make the wrong assumptions about each other.. sometimes, we can't help it but to make assumptions... i'm just wondering, if you make assumptions about something or someone, does that mean that you're judging?

hmm, make an example could make things clearer... for example, you met this person for the very first time and you went out dinner with this person.. as a courtesy, you ask whether he/she wants a drink... in your mind, you really didn't expect he/she would order an alcoholic drink because you know that he/she is from a very strict family, hence you assume that alcoholic drink is forbidden in his/her life! from that moment when he/she ordered the drink, your impression of this person went from good to average. Does that mean that you have judged this person? I don't know if this example make any sense.. but that is how i feel...

People always assume.. we assume that if we do certain kind of acts, we will upset that person... we assume that people will get offended, we assume that people might judge us etc etc.. yes, we use our past experience to deduce something, we use our rationality to come to an assumptions.. but in the end, are we judging that person?

it's just a random thought anyway..

Roller Coaster

2009-02-24T06:52:00.002+08:00

I know that I have not been updating... I guess I am really lazy or rather can't be bothered to write about anything in this blog... Somehow, at this very moment, I need to write... Probably writing will help to reflect on things that had happened in this few months or weeks...

Exam has ended...

Results?

I will only know this Friday...

How's life?

I would say it is like a roller coaster...

Ups and Downs...

We all know it is inevitable...

Last week was a week where my emotions somehow went to this amusement park and took a roller coaster ride... The ride was indeed thrilling in a way where you feel sick after riding it... it takes away your breath, you almost can't breathe... you can't even scream... all you can do is just suck it all in... your face is pale as if there wasn't any blood anymore... after that ride, you just feel like vomiting everything that you ate... you just can't contain it anymore... spilling it out is really messy... in the end, you have to clean your own mess... your own sick...

During that time, you feel so alone... like no one is there to help you... however, i thank God for friends... friends that stood by me when i was throwing up my "mess", friends that help me out when i don't know how how to clean the "mess"... that's when i feel loved... that's when i know that God has not abandoned me... He is actually with me... He sends friends to comfort me...

I don't like it when friendship starts to turn sour... I don't know how to handle it... I don't know how to face them... I can't find the grey area... I don't know how to balance... Hence, i was tempted to take the easy way out which is sweeping it under the carpet... well, I guess sweeping it under the carpet isn't the way i resolve things... i prefer confrontation... thank God, my way works! I'm glad that this roller coaster ride has come to an end... at least after throwing up, i felt so much better... obviously, it was messy because of the sick but after cleaning up, it is fine... maybe it is true that every friendship needs to go through some kind of "trials".. if you have overcome those "trials", clearly your friendship is real!

oh well, thank God the ride is over...

Start of something new!

2009-01-02T07:14:00.003+08:00

Hello 2009!

Goodbye 2008...

So many things had happened in that year...

Ups and downs...

Good and Bad...

but then again,

Thank God for His faithfulness!

He still kept me safe throughout the year...

He gave me my family and my friends to support me...

without their love, i think i wouldn't be able to stand on my feet...

Looking back, i think i have not fully obeyed God...

I think i have not done my part...

I think i didn't try my best...

So many opportunities that i've missed...

So many times I've failed God...

However,

this God that i believe in did not abandon me...

He did not give up on me...

He continues to love me, give me hope and fill me with joy...

Because of his love, I'm able to give love...

By giving love, i feel loved as well...

God is right!

If you give, you receive more...

That's what i really learned in year 2008...

New Year's resolution??

simple...

DEVOTION

WORK HARD

LOSE WEIGHT

Lord, I commit this into your hands...

I pray that in the year of 2009, I will be able to stay close to you, work hard for my uni and definitely lose weight! I pray for you strength and favor to be upon me... thank you so much for your provision...In Your name I pray, AMEN!

Christmas!

2008-12-23T08:58:00.003+08:00

Christmas . . .

I always love this season of the year...

It is the time where family and friends spend time together...

yes, i may be in a foreign land...

but...

what exactly is a foreign land?

is it really foreign?

not exactly...

i don't think is a foreign when you find your spiritual family here...

I'm really thankful that God has given me spiritual family here...

Friends whom i can call my family...

friends who cares for me...

friends who accept me for who i am...

Thank you Lord!

I know Christmas would be different this year...

Being different may not be bad...

It is just another experience...

God,

I want to thank you for the work you done in my life!

For your unfailing love

For your grace

For the cross!

Christmas is my favourite season...

because it is a season of love...

is a season of giving...

i learn to give...

give whatever i have...

give the most precious thing on earth...

which is LOVE!

Home...

2008-11-29T00:54:00.002+08:00

Home...

Is where i was born...

Is where i was brought up...

Is where my closest people are...

Is a place where I can never find a place to replace...

Is where I can be myself...

Is where I know I'm loved...

Is where I know I'm protected...

Is where I can be vulnerable...

I want to go home...

I want to see home...

I want to feel home...

Yes, I am homesick...

especially Christmas season is here.. where everyone is going home to be with their family and friends... and yet, i am still here... i wouldn't say is a lonely christmas but is definitely different without my closest friends and family...

What can I do?

I just have to bear it, persevere it and hang on...

What can I complain?

I just have to count my blessings that God has given me here...

Do I feel sad?

Yes, Of course! but God knows what best for me... probably He has prepared a whole new experience of Christmas here!

So,

I just have to pray...

God,

Embrace me with your love

That's all i ask...

How i wish...

2008-11-19T19:04:00.003+08:00

How I wish Christmas is here now at this very moment!!

I'm playing Christmas Carols and songs in my itunes already! Just love the atmosphere of Christmas! Thinking of buying christmas deco for my room too! hmm.. probably a small christmas tree is good!! will go hunt in town...

then again... looking at those law books on my desk isn't the pleasing to my eyes!! sigh..
there's no perfection in everything...
just have to bear with the bad things...
hmm..
probably the word "bear" isn't a good word... it is a negative word indeed...
probably i should look at the good side of things even though it may appears to be bad...
sometimes, trying to be idealistic is good..
at least it takes away all the negative thoughts...
at least you will be comforted and encouraged...
some argued that being realistic is the most practical but it will somehow brings someone down.. esp a dreamer like me..
i like dreaming big things! that's why one of my favourite character in the Bible is Joseph...
He is a dreamer...
God gave him dreams...
Dreams that is real!
Lord, help me to dream big things that you have for me!!

Packed weekend...

2008-11-10T08:28:00.003+08:00

Phew! I'm really knackered right now after a long weekend...

First, I did not sleep at all on fri night cuz I have to wake up at 3am in the morning to catch the coach for Nottingham games! so, forced myself to sleep but i failed... decided to just stay awake at wait till 3..

Oh, btw, Nottingham Games is like a sports games for all Malaysia societies all over UK..
I went there to play netball...
Unfortunately, out team lost... but one thing, i felt we really played well! just the other teams were really strong...

then it was Sunday again!
i just love sunday!
I can meet my family and friends!!
hehe... seriously, i think i'm really attached to my church friends here..
I can't believe i actually missed them when i was in Nottingham!! it just felt so weird without seeing them on a sat or fri!!
Gosh!! we are too attached i guess.. hehe

we had sunday school training about ethics with children after service..
i thought it was good cuz sunday school here is quite different from home..
Most of the children here are from non-christian background.. and we need to watch our teaching style and stuff like that..

guess.. i really need to go to bed now before i crash in front of the laptop!

Finally..

2008-10-31T19:51:00.002+08:00

Finally is Reading week already!

I really need this one week break to catch up with my studies!! So much to read, so much to study.. Besides that, I need this time to spend more time with God and to seek Him..

So much things happened the past few weeks! Ups and Downs.. seems to be like a roller coaster.. but it all turned out to be good...

I'm glad that student fellowship is doing the series on Friendship!
I thought it was really appropriate for everyone to think through about the friendship that we have..

Have you invested enough time in your friendship?

Have you given in efforts to sustain the friendship?

Are you going through the thicks and thins with your friend?

Is your friendship Christ-centered?

Sometimes we may think that is really tiring to make the effort, is tiring to make the initiative..

But just hang on! persevere on!

You will see the fruit really soon... those efforts, time and even tears will not go into vain.. Your friendship will grow even stronger!

I thank God for the people He put in my life. Everyone has a special place.. they all play different role in different seasons of my life!

Friendship..
sounds really familiar..
But
it is POWERFUL
it is a GIFT

2008-10-28T05:41:00.003+08:00

I woke up this morning feeling depressed and lonely...

I wonder why...

Perhaps I miss them...

Perhaps is her...

Perhaps is just mood swing...

However, God is good!

He just send people around to comfort me and cheer me up!

I am really blessed here...

He gave me a family here that cares for me and loves me...

What can I ask for more?

I just need to keep thanking Him...

Looking forward to worship practice on Wednesday!!!

Can't wait to see all of them!

God is GOOD!

. . . Tired . . .

2008-10-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

I'm just tired...

Really tired...

I just want to sleep...

God's power..

2008-10-16T07:01:00.002+08:00

Isn't amazing to own power like God?

Isn't awesome to just be like God?

Well, i don't know about you.. For me, sometimes i do think is really cool to possess what God has! He is the creator of heaven and earth
He does everything He wants
He is everything!

There's always a but i guess...

I'm not too sure whether I want those power to fulfill my own needs..
I'm not too sure whether I can control my life with those finite wisdom i have...

Being God isn't easy i think.. Sometimes, i wonder will God be sad to see all His children walk away from His love... Will He be disappointed what His children didn't make a decision to follow Him?

God loves us so much that He gave us freewill!
yes, He is all powerful but yet He did not use it to control our willingness..
He waits for us to turn back to Him, to love Him and to accept Him..
Isn't God wonderful?
Isn't His love amazing?

But what are we doing?
We just like to do things our ways.. Who are we? We are created by Him! We belong to Him!
Why can't people understand that?

Sometimes these thought frustrates me..
However, I was once like that till God changed me life..
I believe God has His perfect timing for everything..
His plans are to prosper us and not to fail us..

Prayers..
That's all...
Keep praying...

You want a breakthrough?
Pray...
You want a closer relationship?
Pray...
You are struggling with issues?
Pray...

Jesus prayed..

Do not ever give up in prayers because God listens and answers!

. . .

2008-10-08T05:31:00.002+08:00

Well, first of all i have to say something to Mr.Wise...

Joanne Ong did not do anything for the past few days although she wasn't blogging... she was just procrastinating and sleeping apart from going lectures!!!! sigh... I think I have to blame the weather... these few days have been miserable!! it has been raining, cold and gloomy... makes you feel like staying in and sleep under your warm duvet... but then again, it my own fault...

JOANNE ONG HAS NO DISCIPLINE!!

Well, weekend was hectic! we had social night, sunday school and we led worship last Sun! so, it was kinda tiring and drained out all my energy... However, all the hard work was worth it.. we had lots of newcomers and friends who came for social night! i think everyone enjoyed it... so sorry that i didn't post any pictures cuz was busy organizing the games and entertain ppl...

I think this semester, Thursday would be the busiest day of my week.. this week, i have 5 HOURS of class!!!! that's terrible!! and i have student fellowhip on that day as well! PHEW! All i can say is... JOANNE ONG, YOU STILL HAVE TO DO IT! NO COMPLAINTS! is hard to not grumble and complaint though...

Okie dokie.. going to bed soon..

Updates!

2008-10-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

Seems like i'm getting lazy to update my blog now.. hehe

Anyway, i have been busy this week as lectures have started! wow... i can feel the sense of urgency already.. new subjects, new stuff to learn.. i think the most interesting subject that i'm taking for this sem is Criminal Evidence... I think the more I study this subject, the more I feel Justice doesn't really exist anymore.. Lawyers just manipulate their evidences and loop holes to twist and turn.. they do not care what is the "TRUTH".. They only want to WIN that case.. wonder will i become one of those lawyers... hmmm...

yea.. timetable is quite pack this term.. mush more work that need to be done and prepared.. fuh! here we go again! UNI LIFE!

Apart from uni, church is really busy as well.. we have a social night going on this Sat night! A night filled with mouth-watering Malaysian food and Games! talking about games, I'm in-charge of it... seriously, i think i'm getting old... can't remember all the games that we played.. hehe...

Hope the new comers will turn up for this event! Oh ya, Student fellowship will be leading worship this Sun and I'm on keyboard... everyone is really nervous about it cuz most of us are first time leading the congregation... something like Student Awareness Weekend!

well well... guess these are what going to happen in the nxt few days.... seriously, 2nd year now! JOANNE ONG GOT TO WORK HARD!

JOANNE ONG GOT TO STOP PROCRASTINATING!

JOANNE ONG GOT TO PRAY HARDER!

haha..

alright..

JOANNE ONG NEEDS TO GO NOW.....

Lost...

2008-09-25T04:29:00.002+08:00

I know some of you might be surprised of the title... LOST..

I don't know how to described that but i think LOST is the best word to describe my emotion.. I know I said it is really good to be back here in Manchester! and why LOST?

I seriously don't know why.. just these few days... probably i need to get back to my routine.. but at the same time i don't want to cuz all law books will be there waiting for me! which is totally unpleasant! so... here i am.. LOST.... dunno what to do at the mean time... but at the same time, i have lots of programs! but it doesn't seem to connect with my emotion.. anyway, let's not talk about it anymore..

Just to update some of you...

These few days i have been hanging out with my student fellowship friends.. nearly everyday! i really miss them a lot when i was in Malaysia.. so,now is all about catching up with each other..
However, there are a few friends that i felt distant with them..
i don't know how to rebuild the friendship.. but i really pray that God will help me to get close to them again... cuz this "distant" feeling is seriously not nice cuz is so awkward!! i'm sure you guys know what i mean.. but yea.. it takes time.. what can i expect? is just a week that i'm back here right? haha..

okie dokie! that's about it for today!

Manchestaa!!!

2008-09-20T00:20:00.003+08:00

Good to be back here in Manchester!

Weather is not too bad.. just a bit wet... but i'm really happy to be back here!

Just wanna post up some pictures of my new flat! woohoo!!

I got a double-bed room.. so is really big! really like it here... super convenient! just 3 mins walk to a mini supermarket.. isn't good? haha..

alright.. here are the pictures!

Oh ya..i got my own bathroom too with a bath tub!

Okie Dokie.. will update more next time!

see ya!

Back..

2008-09-07T15:58:00.002+08:00

Guess I have not been blogging for ages! Sorry about that..

Don't worry, Joanne Ong is back to update about her life! However, this post will not be a long-winded one.. will update more when she gets back to UK in about a week time! I think Joanne ong is quite excited about going back to her uni life and looking forward to seeing what God has planned for her! She misses all her friends in UK too! hehe..

Joanne ong has learned a lot about God, herself and people during this summer. She hopes that all the lessons would not turned into waste but all those that she has learned would be put into practice. She hopes that the coming academic year would be a great one with God's directions and plans. She sees lots of potential in UK and would like to sow more seeds her friends' lives. Joanne ong wants to see God's sovereignty in Manchester and she knows that God wants to do great things in the student ministry. This will be a great adventure. She knows that this journey would not be an easy one but because of the God she believes in, Everything is POSSIBLE!

Alright, Joanne ong is anticipating the power and miracle of God!

Taiwan

2008-07-12T10:04:00.001+08:00

Hey people, i'll make it easier for everyone to know the updates about Taiwan..

Go visit this website where we will update as a team..

http://www.omf.org/omf/uk/omf_at_work/serve_asia_blogs_2008/taiwan_team

There we will post up our prayers items and events that we are doing..

Cheers!

TAIWAN

2008-07-09T12:17:00.003+08:00

hello people! Greetings from taiwan!

I have arrived safely in the land of Taiwan 2 days ago!

I'm in Taichung currently for orientation briefing.. my teammates are amazing.. really helpful people.. Thank God that my stomach is feeling so much better.. it is really God who sustains me till now...

we're going to be here till this sat then we're going to leave for fenyuan for VGM camp where we're going to facilate a bilingual camp over there...

so, keep praying! so far, everything is still good here.. everything is still under control but of course we are preparing ourselves for the unexpected..

I hope i can update my blog here as often as possible to keep you guys updated..

Cheers!

2008-07-05T15:15:00.002+08:00

Have been really sick for a almost a week!

Thank God that i'm recovering after admitted to hospital..

Getting ready for Taiwan!

Hope my stomach will be in good condition there.. i really wanna eat the good food there!

PPL!! pls pray for me as this is a mission trip..

pray that my health will be in good state

pray that God will use me to minister the people over there

pray that God will change me

pray that everything will go smoothly

hope i can find internet connection to update you guys!

How ironic...

2008-06-13T01:42:00.003+08:00

Just got back home!!!

Yeap! Managed to surprise my family esp my mum!! she was so shocked when she saw me!! i could see her tears.... i guess she really didn't expect this at all.. and clearly she misses me very much!! i love you mum!!

can't believe i miss all my friends back in UK already!! i really do! and is only my first day in Malaysia and i already miss UK.... how ironic.. when i was there, i was looking forward to come back home.... and now i'm home, i miss them very much... sigh... why can't i have both??

. . .

2008-06-09T16:38:00.001+08:00

I'm going HOME...

Mixed Feelings...

Say Goodbye...

Say hello...

Sadness...

Joy...

Leaving...

Coming...

Look at your life from heaven's eyes.

2008-06-07T07:32:00.004+08:00

sometimes we are so caught up with our own business and problems till we forgot to look at the big picture that God has for us.

Be still and listen.

He is all around us.

Look up.

Seek Him.

and then, we would be able to see things through His eyes.

2008-06-03T10:01:00.002+08:00

Changes...

Good or Bad?

2008-05-30T17:11:00.000+08:00

JOANNE ONG NEEDS REVELATIONS FROM GOD!!!!

Day Trip to BLACKPOOL!!

2008-05-29T07:38:00.003+08:00

After the whole exams period, finally i get to go on a holiday! well, not exactly a holiday but good enough.. at least there was sun, beach and FUN!

Guess the pictures above said everything.. i came back with a tan!!! My face was all red and it really looked horrible.. can't believe i will get a tan in UK! haha..

but the trip was really good despite the exhaustion..

Grrr.. can't wait to back home!! really want to go the beaches back home..

2008-05-23T20:44:00.001+08:00

IT IS DONE!

Thank you for YOUR FAITHFULNESS!

2008-05-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

I guess during the midst of exam, everyone seems to be so occupied with their studies.. i'm not saying that that is wrong, in fact, we need to revise as much as we can so we can say we have tried our best after that.... However, are we too occupied with our work and studies until we neglected the one who is actually our Provider and our source of strength?

Some of us rely on our own strength and think that we can do it by ourselves... and when we fail, we blame ourselves or even blame God for not helping us... isn't unfair to God? He wants to help us and indeed He is carrying us through all difficulties, but we are the one who shut Him out... we think that we can do it on our own strength, thus we don't need His help.... This is not supposed to be the way.. I can't do anything without Him... I just can't!

I am so blessed when i heard this song-Footprints in the Sand because God is just so faithful... when there's only one set of footprints in the sand, i know He is carrying me because He cares for me. I know I can fully rest my soul in Him because I trust Him... Isn't that wonderful when you know someone who promise you to carry through your sadness, sorrows and despair?

Trust in Him!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=d08X2lN669k&feature=user

Go youtube it! listen to the words....

To all the mothers!

2008-05-11T07:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

just wanna thank God for all the mothers in this world especially MY MUM!!

Mummy, I really wish that I am home now to give you a big hug and a kiss to say " I LOVE YOU"! For all that you've done, i just want to say a big thank you! MUACK!

Exams?? SCREW IT!!!

2008-05-07T06:20:00.002+08:00

GGGRRRRRRR!!!!!

i'm reading homicide now... and i have loads more to cover!!!

AHHH.. taking a coffee break and trying to release all my stress in my blog....

pardon me...

2008-05-05T05:27:00.002+08:00

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI KHOON!!

ow.. how i wish i could celebrate your 20th birthday with you! but i'm sure you are having a great time in Philly.. Don't worry, i'll make it up when we're back in Malaysia! definitely gonna explore more fancy restaurants with you girls.. can't wait for summer break!!!

now.. 10 more days to exam!! Gosh.. really freaks me out when i have not totally prepared for it.. God, help me!! pray for me ppl!

there are just so many things on my plate now.. but decides to sweep everything under the carpet.. need to focus on my exam!

WHY?!! WHY do we need to go for exams??!!!!

The Difference between Science and God

2008-04-23T02:07:00.003+08:00

Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.'
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly.

'Aha! The Bible!'

He considers for a moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues.

'He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:

'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.

'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have. Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester.

'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.

'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good. God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room.

'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?'

The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers.

'I guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues.

'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds,

'Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

A.R.K.

2008-04-16T02:36:00.002+08:00

Have anyone of you watched Evan Almighty? well, i just watched it.. and I think it was awesome! I kinda got some insight from that movie.. seriously, I think once God wants us to do something for Him, it is unstoppable! No matter how hard you try to run away from it, God will make you do it! Like Evan in that movie, he didn't believe what God told him to do... i mean, i think i will be like him as well! Who will build an ark in the middle of New York during summer??? it is crazy!

But, when God asks you to do something, you better do it! cuz He knows everything.. the past, present and the future... When you hear His calling, RESPOND to it! He calls you to do something because He loves you... He cares for each one of us... and He definitely has a plan for each one of us.. Who knows? He might even ask you to build an "ARK" for him?

How can you change the world? it seems that the world is getting "sick".. so many murders, robbery, theft, sickness, immorality etc.... How are we going to change this world?

* by doing one Act of Random Kindness at a time*

-no subject-

2008-04-14T02:49:00.002+08:00

well, just wanna post something in my blog but don't know exactly what to put as my title.. thus, -no subject-

just came back from Sunday school! i thought this week was good cuz at least most of them did sing along with me when i song lead... most of them do the action as well.. must be God doing the work... Praise Him!

now i have to get back to work! 2 datelines to meet.. One essay and one assessed coursework! fuh.. and exam is coming in a month's time!!! and in 2 months time, i'll be back in Malaysia!!! yay!

however, besides studies, there are some planning to do in student fellowship as well.. i really hope that God will make Sherlyn stay back in Uk.. I hope that i'm able to work with her in the next academic year.. well, is all in God's hand isn't? just have pray and wait upon Him..

sigh.. i miss home!

-no limits-

2008-04-09T08:21:00.002+08:00

Do you wanna fly higher?
Do you want to do something that no one has ever done before?
Do you want to be free from all the boundaries and limits set by the world?

somehow deep inside me, there's a little Joanne who wants to do something different from everyone else! She wants to do something which is so big that no one has ever done before... She wants to fly... so high up that she could see everything from the sky.... She wants a breakthrough!!

*praying hard*

A new PURPOSE!

2008-04-01T22:02:00.002+08:00

yeap.. i know i have been quite a lazy blogger... hehe.. but i was really busy with holidays and conference...

first week of holiday, i was spending time with Aimi, Theresa and Ry... really thank you all for making the effort to visit me! i think i really feed all of you well! i'm no longer nightmare host!!! hahaha.. indeed, i was a very good host right? hehe..

Second week of holiday... spent 4 days in NEEC (North England Easter Conference).. that conference was great! God answered my prayer in that conference.. before i went, i was praying for a new vision, new revelation and a new purpose for myself... i was quite disappointed for first 2 days because God seemed silent and I didn't really get what i expected.. however, during the third night, God just touched my heart.. no doubt that He is real... He has never failed to show me that He is real... While Wee Leon was praying for me, God spoke to me through him.. and finally, i found a purpose.. i found God's purpose for me in UK... God said, "GO, and MAKE DISCIPLES!" yes.. i need to do something about it.. pls pray along with me!

Third week of holiday.... well, i should start doing my work.. but just doesn't have the mood to do it... sigh.. need to work on that as well..

what i really hope to see now is what God wants us to do in out student fellowship.. we need a new vision for this fellowship... and i believe God has a big plan for this fellowship...

too lazy to post up all the pics.. but i think some of you can find it in facebook... hehe..

signing off!

FRUSTRATION!!!

2008-03-11T22:25:00.004+08:00

alright! this is how i look like now!!!!!!
I'm frustrated!!! can't think of anything to write on my essay!!! after so many hours, just finish writing 400 words.. i have 1000 more to go!!! GOD HELP ME!!
i'm really suck at this topic.. thus, seriously don't know how to write... and this is due on FRI! i want to finish it by tomorrow so i can do my seminar work after that.... hope can finish it tonight!
now i have to blog to relieve a bit of stress... haha... i know i know is excuses.... but WHATEVER!

right.. i'm surprised that some of you know i'm planning to go to Taiwan! hmmm.. esp sue.. how did you know? yea.. if i'm going, i'll be going with fabien.. his sis told you about it? btw, i was the one who sent you the birthday wish text... hehe..

anyway, i wanna wish my spiritual mummy a BIG BIRTHDAY WISH!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY KELLY!!! sorry that i'm not at home to celebrate with you.. how i wish i can give you all 5 languages of love to you!

You are a M - Mum to me!
You are an extra O- Ordinary woman!
You M - Meant a lot to me!
You are a K - Keeper of God's word!
You are always so E - Encouraging!
You are always so L - Lovely!
Your L - Love has touched many lives! and finally....
You always Y - Yearn more for God!

I love you Mom Kelly!

RANDOM! RANDOM!

2008-03-08T19:41:00.003+08:00

I really hate doing laundry because i think i find myself most unproductive while i'm doing laundry...

38 mintues of washing...
50 minutes of drying...
in between i have to go down to the laundrette to take my clothes from washer to dryer... seriously, can't the machine do it itself??!!!

sigh... i'm doing this post because i'm actually waiting for my clothes.. later have to go down to transfer my clothes!!! jeez....

i need to stop procrastinating!!!!! got 2 seminars, 1 essay.... and then holiday comes!!!! seriously can't wait for easter break! sick of going to class.. sick of going lecture...

random post..

Sarawak Laksa!

2008-03-02T06:00:00.003+08:00

How did i celebrate my leap year???!!

Shermaine invited all the student fellowship members to her house for Sarawak Laksa! I would say that night was a blast! everyone had a good laugh! some say their stomach were cramp after all the laughing and games!

I introduced "um chi chi" to them.. however, it wasn't a great success tho.. can't believe all the doctors, lawyers, engineers and First class students can't play a simple game like that! hahaha..

anyway, later i introduced another game.. and i was glad all of them had fun!!! Great night! esp with ppl that you love and care!

Laziness...

2008-02-28T03:42:00.002+08:00

Someone pls slap me on my face!! My laziness has crept in my life! someone pls take it away for i really cannot be lazy now.. Diligence, pls come now! i welcome you into my study life!!! hahaha

yes guys, i've been really lazy nowadays... dunno why just can't seem to concentrate in my work.. yes, i have done all my essays but when comes to my revision.. sigh. *speechless*

I need to get out from this situation! i need to be hardworking!! McNerdy have to come, not McLazy!!!!

Guess i better stop here.. i have 2 seminars!!! and i have not done a thing yet! Gosh....

You made my day!

2008-02-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

AWww... i felt the love again!!!

I really thank God for sending ppl into my life when i least expected it! hahaha..

There are 5 languages of love:

1)Touch
2)Words of affirmation
3) Gifts
4) Quality of time
5)Acts of service

so, which language do you use to express your love to others?

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2008-02-23T08:08:00.002+08:00

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.

I got this quote from the internet and i thought it was really appropriate.. esp in this post!

I really wanna thank God for friendship... i realised how blessed i am with those friends that God brought into my life.. Come to think of it.. almost all of us are in separate lands..however, i believe that each one of us are thinking about each other...

The time that we have shared together definitely has impacted our lives.. the things that we have done together are still so vivid in out memories.. i guess, separation has made our bond grow stronger... despite of the distance, we endured it... we still love each other so much that deep inside us, we pray for each other... even though we don't talk everyday, our relationship has not changed... even it changed, it only change for the better...

little little things that we do for each other are sufficient enough to show our loves... a phone call, a card, a prayer or even a msg on facebook can melt our heart.. truly truly, only true friends stay!

i can't wait to spend my summer with all of you! i know summer will be a great time of catching up with each other! yes, some may not be home for summer, but i believe that we will, one day, we will be together again!

True good friends are hard to find, difficult to leave and impossible to forget!

-no subject-

2008-02-19T23:56:00.001+08:00

Lord.. Help me..

to be strong
to be firm
to be faithful
to be loving
to be kind
to be generous
to be humble
to be courageous

I need you..

Blessed Chinese New Year Everyone!

2008-02-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

Here comes the "RAT" year! "Xin Nian Kuai Le"! "Gong Xi Fa Cai"!

How i wish i'm back home celebrating the new year! This is my first time celebrating it without my family and friends... Here in manchester, nothing interesting about new year.. guess what? i got class on the first day of new year! How exciting! hahahha

yea.. but i was good.. went for lecture.. it was a long day.. 11-4.. fuh.. tiring... didn't even shoop for clothes for new year.. probably didn't think was necessary... no mood as well... i dont even feel like is chinese new year... no music, decoration of whatsoever... it was kinda dull...

can't believe i need to go through it for another 2 years.... maybe one day if possible, i hope i can go back during CNY... hahaha...

oh ya! today mun yee, tk, beat, elwin, raymond and gf came to my house and bai nian! haha.. was on skype with them.. too bad i wasn't there with them... sigh...

i shall stop complaining cuz my aunts and uncles gave me ANG POW!! yay!! A bit thank you to all of them!

Good News!

2008-02-04T05:38:00.001+08:00

This morning at about 3.30 am.. i received 2 miss calls and 1 message from Malaysia...

I couldn't be bothered who called or what's the content of that msg.. too tired... However, after a few minutes, i was prompted to look at my phone...

2 missed calls----- Teck Keong
1 text----- Beatrice

Text content--- YOUR BRO ACCEPTED CHRIST!

Wow... my eyes were wide opened! I couldn't believe it! I was just full with joy! Without any hesitation, i called tk.. asked him how exactly did my brother accepted Christ! My bro was on the phone saying that he didn't know that it was so easy to accept Jesus into his life! He actually thought that he needs to take some exam or whatsoever... haha...

Ps.Mic led him in sinner's prayer.. and here it is! My brother, Jacky is a Christian now!! Praise the Lord! God is really doing something in my family now... totally unbelievable and awesome! I hope that my bro will start his journey well with the Lord and will have good friends and mentors to guide him throughout this journey... I pray that his fire for God will not die and his passion will continue to persevere on! Thank you Jesus!

Have to thank TK as well... i think is really divine appointment that he is able to pick up my bro to church! hahaa.. thanks dear! sek sek

One down, 3 more to go! I know that God will save all of them in my family! Amen!

oh ya.. another good news... it snowed the other day! it was beautiful but was really short... hmmm.. probably beautiful pics are meant to be temporary.. but God's beauty is forever!

Sweetheart...

2008-01-29T06:57:00.000+08:00

I just read mun yee's blog and she was posting about sweetheart... Gosh, after reading her blog, i realised how much i actually miss all of the ppl back home!

I miss teck keong and mun yee... the random things that we did together... food.... prayers.... driving around hunting for food... driving to Tropicana... watching movies... church... sleep-over...

I miss Elwin and Beatrice... the heart-to-heart talk... cam whoring... jokes and laughter... youth... church... Christmas!

I miss the Girls ( Mei Khoon, Sue, Ruey Yng and Theresa!!)... all the fine dining... sleep-over... gossiping... alcohol... crazy snap shots... gym.... movies!!!!

I miss my FAMILY... the food that mum prepared... dad's nagging... bro's "kacau-ness".... showering with sis... my lovely cousin... breakfast with mum.... seeing dad tipsy... haha..

aaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhh!!!!! wish i can be home right now!

Another weekend away!

2008-01-28T02:34:00.000+08:00

Went away for holiday again last fri to visit Sing Chia in Cardiff! haha.. it was indeed a very last minute plan... really felt sorry for Aimi because i didn't go for her birthday party!! Sorry, Aimi!!!

Sing Chia's house is massive! maybe massive isn't really the right word but it is compared to my tiny room here in Manchester!! haha.. We went to couple of place there.. the city centre, city hall, her university, Cardiff Bay ( The most beautiful part of Cardiff ), movie and Cardiff Castle!

I think the most memorable moment in this trip is the food which sing chia made for me! yay! she made BAK KUT TEH the first night and Curry Chicken the second day!! it was delicious! mmm.. just so sensational! hahah..

here are some pics taken in Cardiff!

Cambridge...

2008-01-24T04:43:00.001+08:00

These are the pictures that i took from Cambridge! sorry the pics is a bit too small cuz is taken from Facebook...

Basically the place is really beautiful! I wish i can study there! so, ppl who are applying to Cambridge to study, WORK HARD!!!!

Inspired..

2008-01-22T07:48:00.000+08:00

Just got back from one of the oldest town in UK---Cambridge! Seriously... i was telling Grace that the moment i reached there, i felt that the air i breathed in was full of intelligence! hahhaa

Cambridge is indeed a beautiful place.. small but is definitely a good environment to study.. unlike Manchester... is like Malacca compared to Kl.. how i wish i am in Cambridge.. studying in those old colleges... is really like Harry Potter kinda atmosphere..

We went to a few colleges to look around.. went to a formal where we dine in one of the old college.. the dining area looks like the Harry Potter's scene where everyone is siting in a long table! kinda cool but the food was not as good as i expected...

sigh... didn't get to punt... weather is too cold and Grace was not interested in punting.. so didn't make it.. i hope to punt the next time i go there and i'll make sure Grace goes with me!!! hahahaha...

tired now.. sat 6 hours plus of coach back... will post up the pictures soon as all of them are with Grace.. see ya! Cheers!

Cleaning up!

2008-01-18T07:16:00.000+08:00

Today indeed was a productive day! woke up early in the morning, did my devotion! I was really intrigued by today's devotion as the author shared about suffering...

Have you ever wondered by a loving God that we believed permits suffering into this world? Some said God's power has diminished as sin is becoming powerful in this world, thus comes suffering... Some said God simply does not exist! BUT, the author answered by giving an analogy...

A boy was running out of money while he was in a camp, he phoned and asked his dad to give him some money. However, his father refused. All his friends were teasing him saying his father doesn't love him enough to give him money. This little boy, having great faith that his father loves him, told his friends that he will trust his father and will ask his father when he gets back home. After the camp was over, he headed back home. His father told him that the reason why he didn't give him the money is because he wants his son to learn how to value money.

See? that is why God permits suffering into this world. We will never know why he did that but we have great faith that He still loves us dearly... We can only ask Him when we're home with Him... Trust the Lord!

yea... after that intriguing devotion, i went to do my laundry! can you believe that i have not done my laundry for a month??!!! hahahha... lazy Joanne... and i vacuumed by room!!!! wahahaha.. felt so clean now... is good to do cleaning up sometimes when you have nothing else to do.. cuz is really a great satisfaction to see your room in a clean and comfortable condition! really love it now... haha.. less homesick...

and so ppl! i'll be away for the weekend! heading to Cambridge tomorrow! hope i can get rid of my homesick-ness soon!!!!

I'm Back!!!!

2008-01-17T04:34:00.000+08:00

Hello ppl! I'm finally back to blog! yea.. i know you guys have been waiting long for this post! haha.. so many of you were asking me for updates especially the malaysia's update!!

yea.. I have been back to Malaysia for a month! I will never regret this trip back because it was indeed a meaningful and memorable one... the moment i come back to Manchester, i felt so homesick! The feeling was worst compare to the time i came here in Sept... this shows how sad and depressed i was not mentioning i have exam right after i reached here... it was terrible... i broke down! yes.. JOANNE BROKE DOWN! still remember beatrice was so worried that she even called all the way from home.. i was really touched!! thanks beatrice!

ok ok.. stop talking about the emo moments.... hmmm.. so what exactly i did in msia?!!!

first of all... sorry to disappoint you guys, cuz i didn't take many pics while i was back.. too lazy indeed... hehe.... anyway, let me summarize it..

1) Family of course! i realize how much i missed them while i was in Manchester!! spending time with them definitely enhanced the joy that i have in Msia!! Dad, Mum, sis and bro, I LOVE you guys!!!! muack!!

2) My "ai mei" gang... Mun Yee and Teck Keong!!! Gosh, almost every week we have to meet up.. or should i say everyday... haha... Jia mien cannot tahan or intimacy and called us the "ai mei" gang... this trip back has brought 3 of us closer... our friendship has definitely grown! each of us has learn to love each other better.. all 5 of language was expressed among the 3 of guys.. Quality of time, Gifts, Acts of service, Touch and Words of affirmation... i miss them so much!!!

3) Church! How can i miss church?!! Dec has been very refreshing for my spirit and soul. God has reminded me of my first love... there are times which i slack in Manchester, but back in msia, God has shown me His faithfulness that He assures me that He still loves me.. so, what more can i ask for?!

4) Beatrice and Elwin!!!! another "ai mei" gang i think... both of them have also showed so much love to me... he had heart to heart talk with one another... this time, i can see elwin can expressed himself more.. esp when he actually told me that he misses me!!! i was really touched! Beatrice was really emo before i left.. sigh... wich i could stay longer!

5) Christmas! hahhaa... sad to say that i fell sick during Christmas!!! i was literary in bed the whole day of Christmas! what a great way of celebrating right?! haha.. BUT... before Christmas has been good... the few days before Christmas was really great! i had caroling, christmas dinner at my place, gifts exchange and of course the christmas musical in my church!!

6) Friends! actually i only get to spend time with a few friends.... but those time that we spent are really precious.. i get to catch up with their lives! Drama drama drama!! hahaha...

7) New Year Eve! this year i spent my new year eve in church... i want to end my year 2007 with God because He has blessed me in so many ways!!! next year, i will wanna testify that i managed to lose weight!!! hahahhaa.... and of course, i spent the rest of the night with mun yee and teck keong.. haha...

7.. a number symbolizes PERFECTION... 2007 may not be a great year for me but God turns the bad into good! i wanna thank God for everything that had happened in that year.. esp family and friends... i learn to appreciate them more and love them more....

so, much had been said.. let me show you some pics! not many but good enough! enjoy!

Raymond and Teck Keong preparing fruit salad for our Christmas Party at Charis' Place
Family at Pavillion!

Beatrice, Elwin(dancer for the musical) and me!

Jen Ric and I preparing for a posh christmas dinner at my place!

Teck Keong, Mun Yee and I at my church christmas Party!
Beatrice and I posing! the theme of that night was CELEBRITY!

So, this is how i end my year 2007... it ended with LOVE!

Gosh.. i love fairy tales!!

2007-12-17T11:14:00.000+08:00

Enchanted! This movie truly has brought fairy tales into real lives!
Yea.. ppl may think that fairy tales do not exist but i do believe in happily ever after! isn't wonderful that you met someone who loves you and want to spent the whole life with you?!!!

"I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss, and a prince i'm hoping comes with this!"

hahaha... oh no! i really sound like i'm desperate of a true love's kiss!!! hahahahhaa... anyway, this is up to God! waiting for His timing to send me my price charming! woohoo!!!

Home...

2007-12-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

People!!!

Finally I'm In Malaysia!!! woohoo!!! Home sweet home! so glad to see everyone back home.. really miss them..

i'm going to sapu all the food i want to eat here!! wahahahhaha...

ooops.. going out now! update later

AAAHHHHHHHHHHH........

2007-12-06T17:01:00.001+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm.. relieved!

5 things i need to do before i go back!

2007-11-26T06:45:00.000+08:00

Alright.. there are 5 things need to be done before i go back to Malaysia!! which is in few more weeks time!!

1) 2 Essays
2) 1 court report
3) Tidy my room (is really in a mess now!! how i wish i have a maid!)
4) buy souvenirs!
5) interview for Bunac summer camp in States

Can't wait to see all of you!! that day i was on skype with mun yee and boss! miss them so so much! oh ya ppl! we are planning to have a Christmas party in Dec!! will inform all of you by that time.. hope can catch up will all of you in that Christmas Party!

FruStrAtiOn...

2007-11-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..........................

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!! OH GOSH... I HAVE INSOMNIA!!!

IT IS VERY FRUSTRATING WHEN YOU ARE REALLY TIRED AND SLEEPY BUT YOU JUST CAN'T SLEEP!!! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BODY SYSTEM.. OR SHOULD I SAY MY BIOLOGICAL CLOCK!!! I JUST CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT!!

URGGH... SOMEONE PLS TELL ME HOW TO OVERCOME THIS PROBLEM!! PLS DON'T TELL ME TO COUNT SHEEP CUZ IT REALLY DOESN'T WORK FOR ME..

GOSH.. TOMORROW IS A BIG DAY!! I'M RUNNING FOR THE POST OF EVENTS CO-ORDINATOR FOR THE MALAYSIAN SOCIETY! MY COMPETITORS ARE REALLY STRONG.. PLS LIFT ME UP IN PRAYER!

Nothing....

2007-11-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

Nothing exciting happened this week.. actually is kinda boring... everyday just stay at home... cold weather.. more assignments need to hand in... Gosh.. i hate this kind of life....

Nothing but WORK! maybe this should be my life! cuz i guess a lawyer like would be like this as well.. everyday reading cases... read read and read... that what i should be doing... haha..

well then, dad? now you can see that i'm studying now.. haha.. didn't party for quite some time.. haha.. come to think of it, next week has a birthday party!! woohoo! finally can party.. but then back in my head there's so much to do.. guess i won't really enjoy the party that much too.... sigh...

anyway, ok.. guess is back to work!! but is weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!! should i go for movie or NOT? hmmm...

A tiMe foR eVErytHinG...

2007-11-15T04:53:00.000+08:00

For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

This was actually taken from the Bible.. I totally agree with this.. and believe there's time for everything.. and i always think the God's timing is the perfect one.. there may be times where you wished miracles would happened or you hope your wish will come true at that particular time but it didn't happened... yes.. it is very disappointing... but deep in my heart, i trust that God knows the perfect time to answer your prayers.. He's not a someone who grant wishes, He's someone who knows what is the best for us.. Hang on.. and you will see the breakthrough and miracles!

yeap! i have to hang on to Him too!!

iTaLy tRiP--- FinaL!

2007-11-12T05:58:00.000+08:00

FINALLY... THE PART WHERE I WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE JOURNEY BACK TO MANCHESTER! THIS IS THE MOST EXCITING PART OF THE WHOLE TRIP.. HAHA.. OR SHOULD I SAY THE MOST UNPREDICTABLE ONE..

SO, OUR FLIGHT TO MANCHESTER FROM TREVISO AIRPORT IS AT 9.40AM.. THUS WE HAVE TO BE IN THE AIRPORT AT 7.40AM... SO, WE LEFT THE BEAUTIFUL VENICE AT ABOUT 6.30AM TO CATCH A TRAIN TO THE AIRPORT... I'M VERY SURE THAT WE TOLD THE TICKETMAN THAT WE WANT A TICKET TO GET US TO THE TREVISO AIRPORT..

HOWEVER, AFTER A 40 MINS TRAIN, WE ENDED UP IN A NO WHERE.. WELL, WE WERE IN TREVISO BUT NOT THE AIRPORT.. WE WERE SHOCKED!! WHERE THE HECK ARE WE??!!!!!

WELL, WE REMAINED CALM.. TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET TO THE AIRPORT FROM THE TRAIN STATION... SO, FOUND THE BUS STOP!!! BUT WE DIDN'T KNOW SHICH BUS TO TAKE... SO, MY FRIEND AND I WENT TO SEEK FOR HELP.. SIGH.. ITALIANS CAN'T UNDERSTAND ENG!! WE PRACTICALLY USED ALL OUR BODY PARTS TO EXPLAIN TO THEM..

GOD BLESSED US!! WE FOUND A BUS TO GET THERE.. THOUGHT WE MIGHT MISS THE FLIGHT.. BUT AFTER WE REACHED, WE FOUND OUT THAT THE FLIGHT WAS DELAYED 3 HOURS DUE TO WEATHER REASON!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK FINE FINE.... WE WAITED AND WAITED AT THE TERMINAL... EVERYONE WAS BURNT OUT BECAUSE WE WERE ALL LACK OF SLEEP....

SUDDENLY, ANNOUNCEMENT CAME... OUT FLIGHT IS CANCELED!!!!!!!!!!! IS RESCHEDULED TO THE NEXT MORNING!!!!!!! WE WAITED SO LONG!!!! AND WHAT THEY TOLD US IS OUT FLIGHT IS CANCELED!!!!!!!!

AND THAT POINT, DUNNO WHY I WAS RATHER CALM.. MAYBE BECAUSE I FINISHED MY ESSAYS!!!!! HAHAHHAHA... SOME OF THEM WAS IN PANIC!!!! CURSING EVERYTHING.. DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO... EVERYTHING TURNED INTO A MESS!!!

WENT TO THE THE HELP DESK.. AND THERE'S NOTHING THEY CAN DO ABOUT IT BECAUSE IT WAS TOO FOGGY TO LAND IN LIVERPOOL..

DURING THAT TIME, EVERYBODY WAS STONING.. DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.. SO, A FEW OF US WENT TO LOOK FOR ACCOMMODATION.... AGAIN.. LANGUAGE IS A PROB!! SIGH.. MUST TAKE UP ITALIAN NOW...

TO CUT THE WHOLE LONG STORY SHORT, SEBASTIAN FOUND A WAY TO GET BACK TO MANCHESTER!! WE TOOK A FLIGHT FROM TREVISO TO LONDON... REACHED LONDON AT ABOUT 1 AM IN THE MORNING!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!!!

FROM LONDON, WE NEED TO CATCH A 7 HOURS JOURNEY COACH BACK TO MANCHESTER!!! WHEN WE WERE IN THE LONDON AIRPORT, WE NEARLY MISSED OUR COACH DUE TO THE LONG QUEUE IN THE IMMIGRATION... THANK GOD AGAIN.. WE FOUND OUT THAT WE CAN TAKE THE BUS FROM THE AIRPORT RATHER THAN VICTORIA STATION... BUT WE NEED TO FORK OUT ANOTHER 10 POUNDS...

AFTER 7 HOURS, FINALLY WE REACHED OUR DESTINATION.... EVERYONE WAS JUST WORN OUT.. SUCH A HECTIC JOURNEY... TRUST ME, IT WAS REALLY TIRING AND FRUSTRATING... WE WERE HOMELESS, PENNILESS AND "FOOD-LESS"!!!!!!!!!

SEE? IT WASN'T A VERY NICE ENDING.. BUT I WOULD SAY IT WAS A GREAT EXPERIENCE! NOBODY WILL BE SO LUCKY TO GO THROUGH THAT!! HAHAHHAA..

NOW LOOKING BACK, I WOULD SAY THE TRIP WAS NOT A BAD TRIP AFTER ALL!!

iTaLy tRiP---PaRt 3

2007-11-10T02:34:00.000+08:00

alright, let's look at part 3!! i'm getting lazy to post now.. hahaha.. forgive me..

PIAZZA DE SPAGNA A.K.A. SPANISH STEPS.. LOOK AT THE CROWD!! THE ITALIANS JUST LIKE TO SIT THERE AND CHILL.. OOPS.. FORGOT TO COUNT HOW MANY STEPS ARE THERE... HAHA..

TOOK PICS WITH THE COPS THERE.. HAHAHA..

STOP DRAGGING ME!! LOL...

LOUIS VUITTON.. SOMEONE BUY ONE FOR ME!!

TIRAMISU IN A CUP! YUMMY.. DELICIOUS!!

MMM... GELATO!! HAD THAT ALMOST EVERY NIGHT!! CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW FAT AM I NOW?? HAHAHA.. GOSH!!

PANTHEON!! LOOK AT THE LUCKY GIRL.. IS HER BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN YAN! WE CELEBRATED HER BIRTHDAY THERE! HOW I WISH I CAN CELEBRATE MINE IN ITALY! HAHAHA..

ON THE WAY TO VENICE!! HAHA.. WE REALLY ENJOYED OUR JOURNEY... HAD WINE.. CHIT CHAT.. AND BEING EMO.. HAHA..

LOOKING FOR OUR HOSTEL IN VENICE!! LOOK AT SEBAZ.. STRESS.. OTHERS? ONLY LIKE TO TAKE PICS.. DIDN'T GIVE MUCH HELP.. POOR SEBAZ.... HAHA

LOOK AT ALL THE MASKS!! MASQUERADE! I BOUGHT ONE BACK TOO.. NOT THAT ONE IN THE PIC THO.. MORE SEXY ONE.. HAHHA..

NICE SCENERY HUH? WEATHER IS SO MUCH BETTER THERE!! AT LEAST THERE'S SUNSHINE!! HAHAHA.. BUT WHEN IS AT NIGHT, IS REALLY COLD BECAUSE IS NEAR THE SEA...

IN THE GONDOLA! HOW "ROMANTIC" IS IT TO SIT WITH 4 GUYS WHICH I'M NOT INTERESTED IN.. HAHAHHAA..

i guess i have upload enough pics of venice and rome! will tell you more about the journey back home in the next post! haha.. exciting one..

ItALy tRiP---- Part 2

2007-11-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

OKIE.. LET ME CONTINUE THE TRIP IN ITALY!

Can you see the priest? haha.. those are the congregation.. they just finished mass.. walking back..

woohoo!! we received roses from Pui Mun!! thanks girl!! you made our day!! hahahha

Luxurious dinner! yum yum....

the whole 10 of us with a waiter! haha.. apparently the waiter is trying to hit on yi wayn!! hahaha..

Trevi fountain!! Does it look like the one you saw in the series "Triumph in the skies"? hahhaa...

the Colosseum!! finally can see the colosseum!! guess that's the main purpose to go over to italy!! hahha..

OK.. GONNA STOP HERE.. DUNNO WHY IS REALLY SLOW TO UPLOAD THE PICS.. WILL UPDATE MORE SOON!

thE uNBeLievAbLe tRip -- ITALY (part 1)

2007-11-07T04:33:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYS! I'M BACK FROM ITALY!! WOOHOO!! TRULY TRULY.. THIS TRIP IS UNPREDICTABLE AND UNBELIEVABLE.. LOADS OF THINGS HAPPENED BEYOND OUR EXPECTATION.. HAHAHA.. HOWEVER, IT WAS A GREAT TRIP AFTER ALL!!

HOW DO I START? HMM.. MAYBE I SHOULD JUST UPLOAD THE PICS AND TELL ALONG THE WAY!

John Lennon's Airport!! we took a coach from Manchester to Liverpool to take the flight to Rome! everyone was excited about it!! lol..

RyanAir.. we took the low budget airline in Europe.. hmm.. i would say it is like AirAsia... so, you guys can imagine it.. Free seating.. but the thing that is different here is that less ppl would rush to the gate to get the good seats.. unlike M'sia.. haha

From the left :Sebastian, Shae-ree, Joanne and Vincent! (in the plane) too bored.. decided to take pics!

US.. trying hard to find the hostel.. we have to carry out bags to walk around with the map to find it!! haha.. like backpackers right?!! kinda adventurous!

First dinner in Rome!! it wasn't very good and it was freaking expensive!! maybe because we were the last customers and the owner of the restaurant insist to have us in tho we didn't want to... but there are no other restaurants around our area.. and the attitude of the waiters were very bad!! sigh...

Monument!! hmm.. not sure what's the name tho.. cuz it was at night.. we just randomly walked around and saw this Big building.. Rome is full of monuments and nice, ancient looking building!! nice!

Posers!! too free... found out that posing is the best way to entertain ourselves!!

Guess wat?!! we went to see the Pope!! hahhaa.. look at the crowd! it was madness!! we waited 3 hours to see him!! too bad i still have not received the pics from my friend.. if not, you guys can see him.. Fuh! dunno what was i thinking.. queue to see him... and it was under the rain!! can you believe it?? hahhahaha

Vatican city!! look at the building behind!! magnificent isn't it? beautiful.... weather was not too bad too!

While waiting for the Pope.. take pics again!! hahaha..

Look at all those.. we went to the museum of Vatican.. it was really beautiful!! all painting, sculptures etc etc.. i would say the ppl who drew all that were awesome and talented!! God is so creative isn't it? He creates different kinds of ppl.. hahaha..

OK OK.. WILL TELL YOU MORE ABOUT THE TRIP DURING THE NEXT POST.. TOO MUCH TO WRITE.. HAHA.. HAVE TO CATCH UP MY WORK... FUH.. PLENTY TO READ AND DO!!!

Woot!!!

2007-10-30T18:41:00.000+08:00

HEY PPL!!

IN A FEW MORE HOURS TIME, I WILL BE IN ITALY!! WAHAHAHAHHAA.... WILL TELL YOU MORE WHEN I GET BACK....

ESSAY DONE! HOLIDAY BEGINS!!! HAHAHAHA... OH YA.. PLS PRAY THAT I WILL NOT GET PICKPOCKET.. THERE ARE LOTS OF CASES IN ITALY ESP ROME.. PRAY THAT I WILL COME BACK IN ONE PIECE!! HAHA.. OF COURSE, I HOPE THAT I WILL HAVE LOADS OF FUN TOO!!

WILL UPDATE ABOUT IT IN ABOUT 6 DAYS!! CIAOZ!

AWAKEN

2007-10-29T03:55:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like i'm just existing. i'm not really living.
i'm only watching the time slip away.
i've forgotten who i am in you, i'm not who i'm meant to be, no.
i'm drifting further away from my destiny.

awaken my heart, awaken my soul. awaken your power and take control. awaken the passion to live for you lord. awaken me.

my soul is longing,my heart is searching. i'm desperate for you to move. give me a hunger, pull me closer. i'm crying out to you.

awaken my heart, awaken my soul. awaken your power and take control. awaken the passion to live for you, i want to live for you. awaken my heart, awaken my soul. awaken your power and take control. awaken the passion to live for you lord.

open my eyes so i can see your presence dwelling inside.
wake me up cause i can't live another minute, if i'm not shinning your light.

awaken my heart, awaken my soul. awaken the passion in me!

lord awaken me, so let my testimony. lord awaken me, shine your light through me.
lord awaken me, so let my testimony. lord awaken me, shine your light through me.

awaken my heart, awaken my soul. awaken your power and take control. awaken the passion to live for you, to live for you. yeah, yeah, yeah. wake me up lord. give me a passion jesus. i want to live for you.

AAHHHHHHHHHH...............

2007-10-28T08:33:00.000+08:00

One more essay to go!!! really struggling writing the final one!!! is stupid public law!!! seriously, someone pls teach me how to write!!!!

let me release a bit of stress.... AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh.. resume work..

Random Pics!!

2007-10-24T23:40:00.001+08:00

WELL WELL. THIS POST WILL BE ALL ABOUT PICS!! ENJOY!

Stress..

2007-10-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

OH GOSH!! SOMEONE PLS TEACH ME HOW TO FINISH 3 ESSAYS IN ONE WEEK!!

SERIOUSLY.. I'M REALLY FEELING STRESS NOW.. GUESS I REALLY HAVE BEEN HAVING FUN TILL HAVE TO COMPLETE 3 ESSAYS IN ONE WEEK... IS THAT POSSIBLE???

WELL.. IT IS IF I CAN DO FAST READING AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I'VE READ!!! SOMEONE PLS HELP ME!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIGH.. IS ALL ABOUT ITALY TRIP.. IF I DON'T GO, I STILL HAVE ANOTHER WEEK TO DO.. BUT I'VE PROMISED TO GO!!! AND NOW I HAVE TO FINISH EVERYTHING BEFORE THE TRIP... I REALLY HOPE THE ITALY TRIP WILL BE WORTH THE MONEY AND THE TIME!!

OK OK.. ENOUGH OF COMPLAINING... TIME TO GET BACK TO WORK!!!

LoNdOn.. lonDon..

2007-10-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!! just got back from london this morning!! it was tiring but not a bad trip!! got to see lots of ppl!!

first of all, let me thank theresa for her great hospitality!!! and her mum too!! next time when you come up to Manchester is my turn ya.. but of course, you have to stay in my tiny room.. hope you don't mind.. hehehe..

Theresa and I were cooking!! well well.. not bad for the first time.. We had noodles with miso soup, vege and chicken!! yum yum!! oh.. I love her kitchen..

London Bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down!! yup! went to London bridge!! This sign is the tube sign.. i hate the tube.. is very complicated and busy!! oh ya.. met a mad woman is the tube.. scary.. lol...

That's the tower bridge!! beautiful isn't!! is so nice to be a tourist cuz you can do loads of crazy stuff and no one actually know you.. we took a couple of pics which we were jumping.. too bad.. the pics are not with me.. will upload soon!!

Look at that!! it actually opens!! haha.. jakoon ppl..

Harrods!! sigh.. too bad is closed when we reached.. no more krispy kream.. the shops here close very early esp during sundays.. we saw lots of branded cars around here!! Guess you can find most of the designer shops here..

Look at theresa!! sigh.. sit nicely la...

Hillsong London!!! oh yea.. i went to Hillsong london!! wow.. it was awesome!! Darlene actually was there!! Great worship.. Awesome sermon by Pastor Joseph Prince from Singapore!! It is really nice to hear Asean preach in a western country.. Praise the Lord!!

Met all of them there!! so good to see them again!!

Covent Garden!! is something like Petaling street in Msia.. lots of interesting things to see!! ppl singing, ppl performing magic... etc etc..

La Tasca! a spanish restaurant!! the food was splendid!! esp the wine!! hope to go there again!!

China town!! apparently is quite big!! lots of asean there!! went there to eat with jian jun and friends!

Look like i'm in Japan isn't it??!! hahaha

Yeap!! I went to Madame Tussauds Musuem!! took a lot pf pics with the STARS!! hahaha.. I think it is worth to go at least once... very interesting!

oh ya.. i went to a sex exhibition too in Barbican street!! hahaha.. you can find all sorts of sex stuff over there!! Don't get me wrong ppl!! it is all artistic.. knowledge about sex... sex from all sorts of countries etc etc... haha.. i think the guys will like it there!! really was an eye-opener to me!! lol

Guess that's about it.. definitely will go there again.. cuz i wanna watch Phantom of the Opera!! there are still lots of places i have not discover!!

I thank God I am in Manchester.. I don't think London is a good place to stay tho.. too hectic and expensive!!! the ppl there really study and study.... stress when i see them.. guess that's what i should learn from them!! study!!! haha

Read... reAD... and REad!!

2007-10-11T03:20:00.000+08:00

Law... What is Law?

Jo: Law is all about reading!!!!!

yea.. i knew it!! but didn't know it requires so much!! Fuh! so tired of reading... loads of cases to read!!! eyes gonna go smaller soon!! hahaha..

this course is really hard.. and i'm really lack of discipline!! God! help me!! need to get back to the mood of studyin... have been playing too much.. sigh..

know this post is kinda stupid.. anyway, too bored, just wanna write something.. hahaha...

oh ya.. before i forget just wanna pray for my dear mun yee! hope she reads this..

Dear Jesus,
Father, I thank you for my dear sister mun yee.. I know that she has been a great! esp in church.. Lord, i pray that you will be with her as she's having her driving test tomorrow.. i pray that you will take away all distraction as she drives.. Give her peace! Take away all the anxiety in her. let her drive skillfully and carefully!!

in Jesus name, Amen.. Girl, you can do it!! May God bless you!! hope you can drive me around in dec!! i'm so tired being your driver!! hahahaha.. jus kidding!

hope everyone is doing alright in Malaysia and every parts of the world!!! oh my gosh!! we are literally separated!! hahaha.. but thank God for technology!! hahaha..

alright.. got to get back to study.. signing off!

Awesome!

2007-10-08T17:57:00.001+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen, may i present you.... *drum roll*

MY BRAND NEW PHONE!!!

Sexy isn't it??!! wahahahhaha....

Old trafford!

2007-10-08T03:02:00.000+08:00

Manchester Unted fans who have not been to Old Trafford will definitely be jealous if they saw this post!!

These are the pics taken there.. fuh.. ths stadium is magnificent! MASSIVE!

The players! haha..

look at that!!!!

this is where the players will chill before the game!

Ronaldo and Rooney in the changing room!

all the sponsors! aiyak.. i've covered "Visit Malaysia 2007"!!! it was really there!!

I can jump!! Pui mun can't!! hahahaha...

The stadium from the front!!

I spent 6 pounds for the tour!! haha

Look at that!! Awesome!!

wow... all the collection of jerseys!!!

yeap!! cool isn't it!! plan to watch a match there soon!! oh ya.. i didn't manage to get a jersey from the Megastore.. too expensive!!!

Guys!! can't get for you.. unless you pay me 57 pounds!!!!! so freaking expensive!!! guess just get it from the city.. is cheaper!!

arrgh.. spent so much!!! and it is just the beginning of the month!!! gonna find a part time job soon.. pls pray that i can find one!!!! hahahhahaa..

Party party!

2007-10-07T05:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Jee!!Yeap! is his birthday! He has been in uk for quite some time.. came here for A level and now is my classmate in Law! and now, he has turned 20!! fuiyo.. big boy liao lo!!

Look at the amount of liquor they bought!! they just wanna get Jee drunk!! hahaha.. heard that this is the tradition over here.. Birthday boy/girl has to be drunk on their BIG day!!
Thank goodness that my birthday is in Aug.. i think i will be in Malaysia.. haha..

Well well.. let me show you pics of the ppl i met over here!

these are mainly the freshers!! went out for a drink on a fri night!

Sebastian from Singapore!! he's doing his third year already.. very smart guy!!

Adrian from Muar!! second year student!! very nice guy! not a bad cook too! haha

Dixon from Hong kong!! just knew him during the party.. he's very good at games!! esp those hong kong style game.. fuh! salute!

they are a lot more! but didn't take pictures with all of them.. will show you one day!!

oh ya! got a new phone dy!! is sony ericsson W 580i!! hahaha... my new UK number is +447515101855! text me or call me! will love to receive calls esp from Malaysia!!!

miss home!

Shopping!

2007-10-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

Finally i can shop in uk! haha..

yeap! went to this place call Cheshire Oaks... well, is about 45 mins drive from Manchester City.. Is a place where all branded outlet store gathered...

i bought quite a lot from there!! winter clothing, shoes and jeans.... well well, my pocket got a HUGE hole now!! got to start saving.. sob sob... No more nightlife, no more lunch in TAI WU (dim sum restaurant)!!! Got to eat bread everyday for lunch during weekdays and weekends!!!! well, there's always a price to pay for everything right? and that definitely including shopping!!

oh yea.. Lectures and seminars started already!! for those who don't know what is Seminar, it actually means tutorial.. is about 8 of us in a tiny class doing discussion... so, i really have to be prepared for it... if not, i'm just going to make a fool of myself! Stress... Stress...

oh ya.. for those who are MANU fans, just to tell you that i'm going to OLD TRAFFORD this sun!!! hahahaha.... but don't worry, is not for any matches.. just to go for a tour around the stadium... still cool right!! hahaha... will try to check out the price of the jerseys there.. if is affordable, will get one!!

one more thing!! I got my airticket dy!! yahoo!! can go back for christmas!! initially, the flight back to Manchester was full... i asked mun yee and boss to pray for me!! i wanna go home!! haha..

Just this morning, mum said there is ticket!! Praise the Lord!! God is really good to me!! now, i can celebrate Christmas with my family and friends!! can't wait for it to come!! Guess it would be one of my most memorable Christmas cuz now, i've experienced what is loneliness like... thus, I will treasure my family and friends even more!!

Grocery Shopping....

2007-09-28T04:14:00.000+08:00

Yeap yeap.. I went to Tesco today to do some grocery shopping!! Actually, the things here are cheap if you don't convert them in Rm.. seriously.. ppl here can live a comfortable life by just earning 1800 pounds! unlike malaysia.. how can you survive by earning RM 1800???

From today onwards, gonna just makan bread for lunch.. cannot afford to eat nice food anymore.. too much dim sum for the weekends.. need to let the tummy and the pocket to rest a bit.. haha...

can't wait for this sun!! I'm going to Cheshire Oaks... that place is about 45 mins drive from manchester... basically is for shopping! cuz all the branded warehouse outlet are over there!! need to get warm clothing... is so cold now! can you believe yesterday temperature went down to 1 degree??!!!!! is just early autumn!! can't imagine how is it like in winter...

i think i'm much more better now compare to the first week... met quite a lot of malaysian! i think i have lost my British accent cuz i have been hanging around with the malaysian recently... all my "la" and "lo" has came back... well well... dunno whether is a good thing or a bad thing.. haha

anyway, yeap! thanks for all your prayers and support! esp my family! miss all of you!

Nightlife in Manchester..

2007-09-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

Last week i get to experience the night life in Manchester!! well. basically is more like partying and drinking... haha.. back home we have mamak, here we only have alcohol.. that's the difference!

My first fishbowl! is kinda cool... everyone will suck the drink together!!
I went pubcrawl! which means we walk from bars to bars together in a big group.. this event is organised by the Chinese Society.. kinda nice..
our last stop is in M-two... my first club in Manchester.. it was not too bad because smokers are not allowed to smoke in the club!! haha... now you won't get smelly shirt and hair when you're back.. haha
he's Daniel.. Melvin's friend.. nice guy...
He's Kee hong!! Malaysian guy.. very nice guy.. always ask me to makan in his house.. get to eat homecook food there!! yummy....
oh.. i went to the casino!! over here.. as long as you're above 18, you get to go in.. don't worry, i didn't gamble.. just went there to play mahjong.. and we get free sandwiched and drinks there!! kinda cool right?? entrance fee is also FOC... guess they are trying to encourage ppl tp gamble.. haha

yea.. that's pretty much of what I've done for the past week.. i'm still trying to adapt to the lifestyle here.. yea.. dad is right, i shouldn't look back so much.. look forward!! see what is God trying to do in my life!!

yeap.. class started dy.. first class wasn't very good.. i was struggling to understand what the lecturer has to say.. His voice is so soft and gentle!! i was trying very hard to catch his accent..

well well.. hope today's class won't be so bad.. oh ya! the books here is so expensive!! sigh.. no choice.. got to buy as well..

ok ok.. will stop here now.. will try my best to update more! pls pray for friends!!! i need good friends!!!

Homesick..

2007-09-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

Guess the title explain everything!!

I'm actually homesick!! Gosh.. one week has passed but is like a month for me! can't wait for dec for Christmas!!

Really miss my family.. esp food!! I don't know whether can i take the English food for the next 3 months..

anyway, glad that i have connection in my room dy.. now i can skype!! finally get to talk to family without time limit and charges.. and thank God for mun yee and boss!! you guys cheered me up!!

Guess what, after i asked you guys to pray for christian friends, immediately during dinner time i met a girl studying Theology!! wonderful isn't it! and yesterday i joined their christian union meeting.. it was good to see christian around..

and guess what, when i was talking to mun yee on skype, she said i have british accent dy!! haha.. fast isn't it? maybe because there are really few Asean in my tower. so.. have to speak their accent with them..

yeap.. thank God the buch of second year malaysian student as well.. they are really kind! am gonna play badminton with them later at 4! yeap! good isn't it??

oh ya.. went jogging this morning in the park near my place.. it was good!! the weather is so good to jog..i felt so healthy!! hmm.. i'm really trying very hard not to put on weight!! haha

ok.. signing off now.. will update more!! miss everyone back home!

More pics from Manchester

2007-09-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

Pictures of the day!!

As you can see.. this is the bar in my accomodation.. is call the BOP! when they are having events, they have dancefloor and disco.. kinda cool ya..
These are the second year student!! oh my gosh! their house is so so so nice!! but yea.. is about 110 pounds a week.. hmm.. plan to stay there in my second year!! and they are cooking for me!! wow.. i felt so at home..finally can eat home-cooked food.. yummy!

Check this out!! public toilet!! my friend actually went there to pee.. and well, to all my girlfriends.. you ca use that if you want cuz is unisex!! but you have to figure out yourself how you gonna do it!!

Finally.. Chinatown!! well, is not very big but good enough for me to buy chinese stuff.. well, is actually quite pricey too..

ok.. that's about it! will update more! miss home!

Here am I... in the foreign land!

2007-09-18T01:19:00.001+08:00

Alright guys!! Finally i have internet connection in my room!! Thank God for it.. after all the running up and down to get the connection fixed!!

Oh no!! I miss home!!! really do... miss my family.. friends and so much more!!

sigh.. thought i actually can cope with the life here.. but well.. is hard to actually fit in to a total foreign place.. asp in the western countries cuz the ppl here are so different!! practically everyday they just party and drink!! is every night!!

Goodness! don't they have life?? or maybe is their culture.. so.. yea.. anyway, all my flat-mates are all "ang mo".. no ASEAN at all.. i think is my whole block there are no ASEAN.. pity yea? sigh.. well well.. hope God will turn this place to a better place..

Every night, the fire alarm will goes off!! i heard the highest record was 48 times in a night!!!!
but so far, i've expereinced it 3 times in a night.. is terrible enough!!! thanks to the drunk ppl who smoke.. horrible.. and i'm staying on the 15 floor.. so, can you imagine i have to run down the stairs?????? is RIDICULOUS!!

ok ok.. enough of talking and blabbering.. here are some pics for you.. hope you can imagine the life i'm experiencing now.. haha

my room when i first walked in.. is very old isn't it??? and is real "BIG"

my room after some transformation... nice a bit yea?? haha

the view from my room... yea.. is facing the main road.. but during the night tho the scenery is good.. but the noise is sigh... dunno how to say la.. haha

anyway, yea.. i think you're thinking that I'm not enjoying myself here dy.. but well.. truly the first few days was not very nice.. but thank God i found a church here.. is call KING's church.. not to bad i would say.. the first time i stepped in.. i already feel like i'm at home.. is like i'm in the House of God.. truly feel comforted and loved...

well, i guess i still have to look look see see... hope i can get settled down fast.. esp my bank account.. hope that i can settle that ASAP.. then everything would be good..

yeap yeap.. i really miss everyone back home.. sob sob.. hope to see you guys soon!!

Manchester!

2007-09-15T17:13:00.000+08:00

Hey everybody!!

Just a short update to tell you guys that i've arrived safely!!!

Thank God.. weather here is not too bad.. not much rain yet...

anyway, will upload the pics when i have my own connection in my room... then maybe you guys can have a clearer picture of my "big" room!! haha..

ok.. pls pray that i can find a good church ya!!

Family...

2007-09-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Family!!

They are the most important people in my life... they shared my happiness, sadness, anger, sorrows, fun, joy and so much more!!! can't imagine what my life would be without them..

Just had a farewell with my family and relatives.. wow... it was really good!!

My dad actually sob in that dinner.. he was really expressing his emotion that night!! i was really touched!! Tears just rolled down my cheek... Mum cried too!!

Now i can really feel the "leaving" emotion.. Nostalgic...

Can't imagine what will happen in the airport on Wed night.. would it be just a normal goodbye or a dramatic farewell?? only God knows..

Just a few pics from that dinner!!

just would like to say a simple prayer to my family...

Dear Lord Jesus,
I thank you that you put me in this wonderful family and I know there's no mistake that I'm here.. and i know i have a purpose in this place.. Father, I pray that one day each and every one of them will come to know you personally and accept you as their Saviour! Even as i'm not in M'sia..i pray that You will watch over them and keep them safe.. Send Christians friends into their lives! Lord, once again i wanna thank you.. thanks for all your blessings in my life esp my family.. In Jesus name.. AMEN.

A Night at My Place!!

2007-09-07T12:55:00.001+08:00

Wonderful night I had with the girls!!

First of all, is gym....

then is dinner...

then is shopping...

then is drinking session!!!

Guess the pic says it all!! we had vodka, Jack Daniels, Johnny Walker... with Sprite!! hmm.. sue was the one who got her face as red as the lobster!!

Cheers!!! look at mk..guess she's a bit drunk..haha

Posers!!!

Yummy Chachos and twisties!! Sue was so tired of taking pics.. haha

Sleeping time!!! hmmm.. everyone was really tired...

GREAT NIGHT!!

hope we can do that again next year when everybody is around!!! love you girls!

CG Gathering..

2007-09-03T00:52:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Hai Yen!!! We had our CG gathering at her place!! yeap yeap.. we really had a great time together!! How I wish we can have more gathering like this..

Food was good!! We had steamboat, grill beef.. etc etc...

Drinks was good too!! We had absolute Vodka!! yummy.. and Bacardi.. and some peppermint liquer... oh ya.. i brought wine too!! however, no one was drunk! haha

Take a look of that picture! we were playing a game.. i learnt it from Mun yee... haha... "Um Chi Chi Um Chi.. Tuki Tuki.. Tongkat Tongket" haha.. you know what?? i think this is one of the nicest ice-breaker!!! we had a good laugh at ourselves and our friends!!! thanks to Mun yee!!!
We must play again!!! can't believe emily can be so crazy too!! haha..

Well well.. gonna miss this bunch of ppl!! tho i've been in this church for about 2 years.. they have been great friends to me!! we laughed, joked, chat, doing crazy stuff esp with beat, elwin, janice and tommy!! haha.. guess we are the loudest CG!!!

oh ya.. elwin said that our cg is the most "STANDARD" wan! well.. meaning all of us are good-looking!! eh, not i perasan k? everyone agreed!! hahahaha.... love you guys!!

Joke of the DAY!

2007-08-31T13:01:00.000+08:00

Why British think 80% of Malaysians coming to UK to study law?

UK Immigration Officer: Purpose ofvisit?Visitor: I’m here to study law, sir.

Officer: You know, you must have a lotof lawyers in Malaysia.

Visitor: Why do you say that?

Officer: Well, i’ve been here for agood twenty years, and I’d say 80% ofMalaysians I see here say they’re hereto read law.

Visitor: Oh, really? That’s reallysomething i never knew. Hard to believein fact.

Officer: Just you watch, then. You juststand here until the next Malaysiancomes along, and I’ll bet he’s here toread law.

*Visitor waits for 5 mins, Ah Chongfrom Malaysia comes to immigrationcounter*

Officer: Mr. Ah Chong, purpose of visit?

Ah Chong: Study lorr…

So guys and gals out there, what you reckon?

haha.. got this from someone's blog.. hope you'll like it!

Okie.. Done!

2007-08-30T14:48:00.000+08:00

Finally!!! I've done my Visa Application!!! yea!!!!

I reached the British High Commission at about 7.. and I still got number 6.. well.. thanks to people who cut the queue!! sigh.. well.. this is Malaysia wert.. can't blame..

anyway, Thank God!! I submitted my application!!

For those who have not submitted, Pls Pls... bring your original bank statement!!!! Yesterday, i got to go back home and take the originals.. and you definitely wouldn't like the feeling of going there the second time.. haha...

Oh ya.. I've got my air ticket dy!! 2 important things have done! now.. just need to do some shopping!! hmm.. guess i really need to pack up things.. never realised i have limited time here untill i checked my calendar yesterday... fuh!

Tata... Bye... Farewell.... "Zai Jian"... Sayonara..

2007-08-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

"DON'T CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER. SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED!"

Well.. Guess this is the season where everyone is leaving or some of them have already left!!

Just to tell you guys that I have decided to leave for Manchester next month!! to be more accurate is 0035 on 13 Sept... however, got to be in the airport on the 12 of sept...

everything is so so so soon!!! Honestly, I'm not mentally prepared to go yet.. somehow i think is too soon.. anyway, this is life right??!! is always so unpredictable.. thought of going to Aussie but turned out to be Uk.. turning here and there.. finally is still Uk.. Well, guess God will have a better plan for me there!!

To mun yee and boss:Hey guys.. sorry that I spoilt all the dreams that we had.. I really do wanna stay over in Aussie and live with both of you.. but well... seems that this dream wouldn't come true.. so sorry.. but well, we gonna make up for everything in Dec!!! make sure both of you come back!! then we can spend the holiday together!! Go somewhere far... hahaha... love you guys a lot!! muack!

To Han:

Hey!! Know you're in Us now.. hope you're having great fun there!! so sorry that i didn't msg or call you before you leave for US.. anyway, just would like to say a big thank you for all your help in my math.. haha.. finally, i can get an A for math!!! haha.. thanks to YOU!!!! besides that, i would like to thank you for allowing me be a part of your life!! like to listen to your problems esp in relationship.. haha.. well, hope i really did help you a bit!! haha

alright..

now..i would like to wish those who are having their birthday today!!!

Ruey Yng!!!

Caleen Chua!!!!

Sam Foong!!!

Happy Birthday to you all!!!

HuMouR...

2007-08-21T12:45:00.000+08:00

Laughter is the Best Medicine!!!

well, got this book from Karena for my birthday..just wanna share some of the funny stories that I've read... hope they can help you to laugh a bit esp for those who are in sadness, confusion, depression etc....

Ah Beng told his wife,"Darling, you've always wanted to move to a more expensive apartmen. Now we don't have to do it but your dream could still be fulfilled-the landlord just raised our rent.
* * *
Ah Beng's wife: Dear, why do you have a hot dog behind your ear?
Ah Beng the Carpenter : Oh, no! I must have eaten my pencil for breakfast this morning!

* * *
Ah Lian : Did you lose a lot of money in Genting?
Ah Beng : I didn't even throw a coin into one of those one-armed bandits. But I lose more money when I ran into a two-armed bandit in the parking lot.

* * *

Singaporean's Approach to Life:

1 wife
2 children
3 bedroom condo
4 wheels
5 figure salary

Malaysian's Approach to Life:

5 children
4 wives
3 figure salary
2 wheels
1 room House

* * *

When a nun got into a taxi, the taxi driver said, "You know, I hope you don't mind but I've always want to be intimate with a nun."

The nun said, "Are you Catholic?"
"Yes, I am."
So the nun jumped into the front seat and gave the taxi driver the most intimate kiss he's ever had.
The taxi driver then turned to the nun and said, "Sorry for taking advantage of you. But to be honest, I'm not Catholic."
The nun replied, "I'm not really a nun either. My name is Vincent and I'm on the way to a costume party."

The moral of the story-Don't mess around with strangers; they may turn out to be "devils".

* * *

WhaT...

2007-08-16T13:38:00.000+08:00

What Would Jesus Think?

What Would Jesus Feel?

What Would Jesus Do?

Lord Jesus, I pray that in my everyday life I would think this 3 questions before I react. I pray that You would help me. In Jesus name, AMEN.

MoVieS...

2007-08-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

Transformers! I know i'm a bit outdated.. but well, thanks to Daniel! If not..i really have to watch alone..Thanks Daniel!

Anyway, I do agree with most of them.. It was a good movie indeed!! Good values...

NO SACRIFICE, NO VICTORY!

Well said i would say... something like NO PAIN, NO GAIN... very true.. in fact in our lives, we always have to work hard to meet our expections and goals.. no such thing as Durian Runtuh! However, there's only one thing which i would say is free-GOD'S GRACE!

Rise-Blood Hunter... Went to watch with Daddy after transformers.. Not a very good movie.. The plot is kinda flat... not much ups and downs..

But well, i think the interesting is Daddy and I actually sat on the twin-seats... haha.. ppl must be thinking why this "old" guy sitting with me.. haha... anyway, i always enjoy the time with him..

Just wanna say I love you dad!! No matter where i go, my loyalty will be with you!! I really do think you're my Elijah now.. love you!

Connection down...

2007-08-13T10:17:00.000+08:00

Finally i can online!! Few days ago.. i have to travel all the way to Starbucks just to get connection!!
But for Mun yee and Tk.. is worth everything!! they did cupcakes with my name on my birthday!! how sweet... well.. it will be sweeter if i can eat it.. haha.. but i kno is quite impossible.. by the time they air mail it.. all will turn *ahem*....

anyway, just would like to thank all of you remembered my big day!! really appreciate all the smses, presents, testimonials, dinner, lunch etc etc.... Most of all your LOVE!!!

Love you guys!! Muack!!

HaPpY!!

2007-08-06T10:19:00.000+08:00

Happy...

Do you feel happy now??

Yes? That's very good!! Keep your spirit up!

No? Is ok.. go get yourself an ICE-CREAM!! haha... everything will be ok.. Don't worry.. be HAPPY!!

I do think is ok to be sad.. to mourn.. to cry... to be a bit miserable... However, don't stay that way for too long... you have to come out from the miserable feeling.. come out from that sadness.... I believe everything is going to be ok... very soon it will be....