Just a thought..

What is patience? What is the antonym of patience?

Many would say is impatience.. i mean how difficult could it be? I was asked by someone about this.. and i knew it wasn't that simple.. but i just couldn't figure out what the answer is and blurted out, "Impatience la!"

However... the answer that I was told is PRIDE. Why would a person lose his patience? because of his pride.. he wants his ways of doing things, hence he doesn't want to wait, doesn't want to hear from others... only his ways because he thinks he is good...

why pride? because many times, we think that we are right... we think that we are wise... so, we lack of patience.. we can't wait, we can't endure, we can't tolerate...

I really like what my friend said.. the opposite of patience is PRIDE.

The one UP there...

I like the email teck keong sent to me when I was feeling emo about going back...

"Jesus is enough... Jesus is enough..."

Indeed,

That statement really comforted me a lot... or rather reminded me that Jesus alone is whom I should rely upon and He alone provides my needs...

The one UP there... who is always faithful, always loving, always caring... He is what I need, whom I need... Thank you...

Thank you Jesus.

It's time

After a few months, I guess it's time to write again... Looking at the screen, my mind just went blank... but it's the urge that makes me write...

In a few days more, i'm going back to UK again... excited? nervous? sad? I guess it's everything... But one thing that I'm sure is I want to grow more... It will be challenging, seeing it's my final year and being in student's ministry... but God's promise is always there.. that He will deliver me...

God,

Prepare me...

I Need You..

It's 3 a.m.

Couldn't sleep yet couldn't study...

My heart cries out to You O God... Help me during this time of distress... Grant me strength as I'm weak now...

I want to shout for joy but I feel like there's a stone suppressing my heart... I lift it all up to You... I want to lay down the stone unto You... "Cast all your anxieties." You said. for You care for me.

You are my refuge and my fortress. The only place where I can find peace... The only place where I can find comfort...

Do not turn Your back on me God... I want to feel your presence... Empower me once again!

I surrender all... absolutely everything... I'm not holding back... no strength to carry on... just relying on You because I know You will carry me through... Indeed, You are carrying me already as I only see one set of footprints... Thank You o God.

Above all else, I just want to say, "I Need You..."

I need You.

The Most Important essence in life

Indeed, Love is the most important essence in life. It seems that God has been speaking to me about Love these few days.. 

We must love or Die!

Love always wins! 

I just watched fireproof... the movie was talking about marriage and the love of God. God's love for us is unconditional. His love for us was never affected even though we rejected him, spat at him and trampled him. I was reminded by His love again and how He wants us to love others as His command said so. 

Lord, teach me to love. 

Mixed Feelings

In Dubai now.. sitting alone at the corner of McD... Listening to "I Surrender" by Vineyard... writing this post... having mixed feelings...

I guess this is the first time that I felt sad leaving UK, or should I be more specific and say leaving my friends in UK... Though I was on the verge of crying but I held back... During my flight from Manchester to Dubai, I was thinking a lot about them... events, outings, stupid comments etc about them! Somehow, I really felt really upset.. 

At the same time, I'm excited to see home as well! I want to see my family and friends back there! Can't wait to eat all the delicious local delicacies! 

But, those thoughts did not cheer me up for long.. I have this funny feeling about meeting people back home.. just wondering would it be awkward or weird.. wonder do people still the same, or rather am i still the same... feel like it's going to a "foreign" land where I don't know most of the people there... 

oh well, maybe i'm just thinking too much due to the boredom... but then again, i reflect a lot... thinking about people back in UK and home... 

Yes, I'm missing people in UK already... 

Yes, I want to be Home..

Why can't I have both at the same time?? 

hmm.. 

Thank you for Your love

Thank you for the cross